Freedom

So I was a little hesitant to share this info yet, but hopefully it'll continue so here goes-This is week four that I have been doing a beta testing program for Jeremy Reid Fitness. The workouts have absolutely been the most physically challenging thing I've ever done in my life, and I have been losing weight consistently (about 7+lbs in 3 weeks) but the biggest and most important change is the fact that this is literally the first time in my entire life that I have felt free of my food addiction. Take a few minutes to process that. It's crazy. Even when I changed my lifestyle in 2009, I struggled DAILY to not overeat, with cravings, honestly in the past 4 years just thinking about food all the time, trying not to emotional eat, failing not quite as much as I started succeeding at not turning to food but just honestly a constant, epic, all-consuming battle. However since starting this nutritional program (no supplements, just a different way of eating than I have ever done, much more strict etc), after about the first week, I have had ZERO cravings. NONE. I got over my frapp withdrawal (seriously, when was the last time I whined about starbucks?!?!?!) and even though this week we were allowed to add in a "free" meal (anything we wanted for one meal!!), I didn't even want to do it!!!! Didn't want a frapp, to go off plan, nothing!! I am not hungry, I am not consumed with thinking about/wanting to eat my next thing on my plan, I don't go to bed at night just so I can get up in the morning and eat again b/c I am out of calories... I am, for the first time in over 4 years, NOT EVEN COUNTING CALORIES!!! I am not obsessively calorie counting, logging food, micro managing my intake...omg there is such freedom and I am listening to my body and I feel absolutely freaking fantastically amazing. The same is true for Keith, who is doing the same thing with me. This makes me want to cry, honestly, b/c I thought to maintain this new lifestyle, I would have to just battle this so hard every day for the rest of my life and that can get overwhelming if you look at the "forever" picture and don't take it day by day. I don't know how things will change after the 8 weeks are over, if I will stay this strict forever, or try to balance back out with what I was doing vs this, but honestly, at this point, I want to continue to see if this is maintainable for the long term for me b/c O.M.G. It's just absolutely stunning, to not feel like food is lurking in my thoughts 24/7. Somehow this combo of macronutrients has done something magically and I don't really get it, but I will research it more to find out why LOL because it's crazy. CRAZY!!! The end.